My family and I still need to complete FAFSA. We should be getting that done this week. My family and I have not really talked about me going to college lately because we don't want to stress ourselves out just yet. My mom always tells me to cross the bridge when I get there. We are really anxious about hearing back from Stanislaus, if I don't get in then I am going to stay at home for another two years and go to community college then transfer over to Stanislaus. My family and I are somewhat facing huge changes in our lives. My brother is realizing he needs to get another job because my mom wants him out of the house by the time I go to college and he wants to get a small place for him and his girl friend who just moved to Modesto. My sister is starting kindergarden soon. My mom wants to move into a smaller place. My aunt is considering moving in with her daughter in L.A. Then theres me, I have a job, school, and now softball to worry about. I have a lot on my plate but so does everyone so I try not to complain. My family is getting stronger but its getting harder to keep things from changing. As soon as I complete FAFSA everything will change. The completion of the form is a step to my future. At times I want to make the two F's into the three F's, by saying Fuck this to everything and not try anymore but I know I have to, not only for myself but for the benefit of my family.